My Older Brother Raped Me And My Sister when i was 4 to 5 years my older brother started raping me i didn't know what was happening and it kept repeating until 4 Th grade when i started realizing what was happening.
i cried to my mom and explained what had happened and she told me not to tell my dad and she would talk to him.
and when i was 13 teen i was putting my clothes in the dryer and he came to me and told me to come with him.
i was confused but i went and he told me to sit down.
he said remember what we use to to do i will pay you if you do it again .
i felt disgusted and shocked i got up and left and since then its been awkward when i started Jr high my sister came to me and told me what had happened to her and how he came to her while she was sleeping.
when she was a kid he had raped her.she told me a lot of her stories and i related to her and how she told me that mom repeated the same thing she'll talk to him.
since then i just hated his guts i had nightmares since then of someone pulling me and dragging, and shacking me and i would always have a melt down and freak out when i remembered.
in 11th grade me and my sis had the courage to tell my dad and he was shocked in a way.
when we told our dad our mom jumped in the conversation saying that he didn't and he swore to god he didn't of course my dad didn't believe us he said he would investigated .
the proof was there when my mom told my dad that we had came to her when we were kids its weird because she acts like she is hurt even thought she defends him and still does i was sick and fed up with it so i asked my dad if me and my sister can leave to another state to move in with our relatives and he said alright that same day my mother went downstairs and locked her self with that monster aka our brother and guess what happened.
my mom told my dad that our brother should live with our relatives where we wanted to go though she knew that's where we wanted to escape and forget when my brother left.
everyone in our family were acting fucked up to us saying we got what we wanted and that it was are fault he left.
and my second to older brother had knew what had happened to us and he told me and my sister to forgive and forget.
how can you if its traumatizing.
our own mother blamed us for what had happened she believes that its our fault still to this day were the outcasts in our family and when ever we want to go out she would make rude remarks its sad look what the world has come to know its time to say **** you and I really 17 and my sister is 16 its hard to let it go i tried so many times but it hurts deeply like some one ripped out my heart i dont know if i should get therapy or some thing what do you think????
